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Daniel became a fan of Whiffie Fried Pies on facebook. I did the same and commented that I was craving a whiffie, but I should really get to bed at a decent hour for once. And so ate half a serving of Coconut Bliss to assuage said craving for sweets when Daniel texted me saying if I met him at the carts he'd treat me.

So I took off (fuck a normal sleep schedule) and ate a lemon whiffie. And then had a can of ginger ale 'cause I was thirsty.

And now I feel all queasy and stuff, because I had a carb-tastic too-big bowl of pasta for dinner, and then followed it up with a shit-ton of sugar.

In other news: as of whenever I get a new debit card, I'm back on Wellbutrin. Well, "back on" might not be the most appropriate phrase, as I last took it several years ago.

To make a long story short: I'm having too much trouble leaving the house or doing anything, really. I haven't taken any steps towards getting a temp job or going back to school because of inertia and fear. I sleep too much and eat too many carbs and don't ride my bike enough. I'm irritable and moody as hell towards Shawn and cry on him for no discernible reason. I'm not enjoying very many things.

So, yeah, I'm going to start taking Wellbutrin again. The XL version has gone generic, but it's still pricey. I gotta call around.

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Best of luck, sweetie. I know that carb-depression cycle only too well.

If you can, enlist people to help you back off the simple carbs. Try to trick yourself into pretending that they're allergens to your roommates or something. I know it's kind of impossible feeling in that state, but if you can get the ball rolling and ride out a few days of detox, it should start getting better.

Eating a fuck-ton of protein instead sometimes helps me. Like ODing on tofu, seitan, nuts, etc.

And Kale. I just eat kale like it's going out of business.

Good luck 'pril! You will be better soon; I have confidence! And don't mind crying on your boyfriend. It's what boyfriends are for ;)

ooh you know what sounds hella good? mushroom facon and pan-fried seitan in quinoa and salad wrapped in nori

OH MY GOD yes.

So you're gonna bring me some, right?

Why the heck are you up so early? I woke up at six am (after getting to bed around two) because I had to pee, and then I realized that I was so hungry my stomach hurt and I couldn't sleep so I gave up. I'm eating sauerkraut from the jar (so tasty when I've been drinking boozahol) and then probably going back to bed, where Shawn is keeping it nice and warm for me.

the time stamp is for UTC, not PST ...

I think I'm going to attempt to make a shit-ton of kimbap and put it in the fridge, then nuke-a-late it for laterz. I'm not sure how quinoa will go w/ everything (I have come to realize that while I have great food *ideas* they never pan out quite right) but I'll make one like that and see how it goes.

I am trying not to carb out, but now I keep forgetting to eat! Too lazy to cook for myself. It's more fun if Ian and I are cooking togeeeether

I do eat kale like it's going out of business, that's a fact. :^)

I think part of the reason I eat so many carbs is that they're easy and cheap. Boil water, add noodles. Y'know?

I don't think Shawn enjoys me crying on him all the time. Don't get me wrong, he's very kind about it, but it's gotta be a downer if nothing else. Especially when I do it for no real reason or really minor reasons. Low blood sugar always makes it worse, I've noticed.

Its not *no* reason! This is a serious funk! The weather is cold and damp, there's no work and no school and no money. These are huge reasons and I think you're very brave!
Do we need to go to The Coast again? ;^)

I was thinking Bagby Hot Springs! Ever been there?! It's awesome, but on a bike (for me) it's two days' ride out--I have friends who do it in one day, but I haven't gotten there yet.