aprilstarchild | (no subject)

I got fired today. Because I was late one too many times.

I had the feeling they wanted to get rid of me months ago. I have punctuality issues. It's really hard for me to get to work on time. I know it's an ADD thing partially (I have caught myself staring into space for entire minutes while getting ready for work some mornings, also I usually wake up very slowly), but also it's hard to drag myself out of bed and get going when I don't like my job.

I loved where I worked. I loved my coworkers. The job itself was infuriatingly frustrating and incredibly tedious. I've done medical records before, but the chaos that rules in that clinic just astounds me. The medical assistants usually have piles and piles of charts and papers all over their desks and shelves, the provider's offices are covered in teetering stacks of charts and paperwork. The charts had bar codes and there were scanners, but charts would go from one person to another without getting scanned out. We once estimated that a third (or more) of each med recs person's day was spent hunting down charts. That's at least a full-time position, right there. And don't even get me started on how doctors and MA's end up wasting a lot of time either trying to find charts, or being unable to take care of things because of missing charts. Patient care suffers because of it.

And there's just no way to improve the system, as it is, because it's just so unwieldy. They need to start hunting down the money (grants? private donors?) to get electronic health records. They are wasting insane amounts of money because they have HUGE paper records.

So...knowing how inefficient and pointless and out-of-date my job was, was not very inspiring in terms of leaving the house. There were days when I had to point out that I got to ride my bike there, in order to get myself out of the house.

In any case. The fact is, I was often late to work, my supervisor talked to me about it, I tried to get better about it and failed repeatedly, and today I got called into the admin office to talk to my supervisor and human resources, after which my supervisor walked me back to my office and had to watch me get all my personal stuff out of my workspace and take back my door fob and nametag (that I never wore!).

I had just over sixty hours of vacation time saved up. Between that and hours worked, my check today was a little over a month's income. I'm going to deposit it tomorrow and give my housemate two months' rent so it's one less thing I have to worry about, and after that, I gotta live cheap.

I skipped a square dance for the BTA tonight. I didn't sleep well last night, and I'm really tired. Also, it was five bucks to get in. :^(

I don't want to work medical records again. I don't know what I'm going to look for. Nannying is a possibility, but Portland has one of the highest unemployment rates of larger US cities, so there's probably lots of people trying to be nannies and less people hiring.

I do want to go back to school full time. I still owe PSU and Sallie Mae money. PSU is not likely to admit me, and Sallie Mae is unlikely to loan me more money, when they're both way overdue. I offer no excuses for my not paying them off. I'm bad with money. There you are.

Wish me luck looking for work. I'm going to need it.