aprilstarchild | (no subject)

So, if you'll remember, I have little silicone plugs in my tear drains. They make it possible for me to wear my contacts. I haven't been wearing them much, admittedly. Every night I remind myself to put them in the next morning, because I think that I might actually manage to get used to them if I put them in just when I woke up. But every morning, either I forget, or I don't feel like bothering.

I've tried just wearing them when I go out, but you can't really do that with hard lenses. Within a few hours my eyeballs start bitching and I have to take them out anyway.

One of my plugs came out. You'd think I'd notice that kind of thing, apparently I didn't, until I looked up close in the mirror last night. Goddammit. Now I have to get a copay to put another one in that eye. I apparently owe $80 to the opthamology department already, because I owe for stuff not covered by my insurance or something. I can never understand the bills for health stuff worth shit. And I already paid out of pocket for the contacts themselves, which after my employee discount was around $150.

All that money, and I don't even wear the damn things. They don't correct my vision as well as my glasses do. Each side can see tolerably well on its own, but the angle of astigmatism that's left over is different in each eye. So with both eyes open, my vision is worse than either individual eye. It makes it headache-inducing to read, because my brain won't let my eyes completely agree on what I'm seeing. That, and every time I blink, everything's a little more blurry for a second or so.

I don't know what to do at this point. I could probably get used to all the crap about the contacts if I actually wore them every day, but do I really want to? On the other hand, if I don't, that sure was a huge waste of time and money.

All you people who can wear soft lenses, I'm so jealous I could cry.

The fact that I'm PMSing and tired doesn't help any.