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ETA: I wrote this earlier and LJ wasn't letting me post. So I'm trying again before leaving work.

Whee, Backspace has yummy food and coffee and *gasp!* computers.

And they're playing Janis Joplin. Sweet.

I keep showing off my new earrings to everyone at work. I should take a picture with my cell and upload and post it or something. I have a flickr account for a reason, dammit.

In other news, I keep having this thing where I'll feel fine for a few hours, la la la, and then suddenly I feel like utter crap and like I'd rather hide in a corner and cry for an hour. It seems to come and go fairly randomly, too. It's tiring, and every time it happens, I feel like, "Oh no, not this again." I guess I just feel oddly disconnected from those emotions, or like I'm trying to be disconnected from them. It's like, HELLO, I've done this before a few times now, and I know what it feels like and all that, so can I just get past it already? Do I really have to do this again?

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This post originally had more...but LJ cut it off instead of saving it. That's okay, I thought it was kinda stupid to start with. Oy.

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Yup. There's one of my new earrings. I did correct the gauge in my old post, they're 16. 16 what, I don't know. *lol* I never get used to the idea that a smaller-numbered gauge is bigger.

Whee for pictures taken by with my cell phone by a friendly coworker. He had watched with amusement as I tried to aim my cell phone at the side of my own head for several minutes. >_<

I may get bigger ones eventually, I'm getting such a kick out of these.

Housing woes and school stuff and lots of swearing

Oh, I forgot to mention earlier--the house near Hawthorne won't know if they have room for me until, I think, early July. And the place I emailed that faces Laurelhurst never got back to me! Grr.

There was stuff I wanted to get done today. I got some groceries and that was it. Ran into frostnoris at the bus stop and got to chat a bit.

PCC has a Math 95 class online this summer. I'm seriously considering it, although part of me strongly suspects that math is the wrong thing to start with in terms of going back to school. It would a review, but I last learned that material, like, four years ago. Anybody got the PCC mth95 texts (including solutions manual) sitting around? Anyone? *LOL*

Have I ever mentioned that I loathe graphic calculators?

Wait a minute. I just downloaded the .pdf of the PSU Bulletin. Near as I can tell, I don't have to take chemistry. The 100-level biology classes are enough to get me into anatomy and physiology, and they don't require chemistry as a prerequisite. It's recommended but not required. *pokes around some more* Hey! There's a 100-level chemistry series that only requires mth95 and is recommended specifically for nursing.

Fuckin' A, man, why have I been so freaked out? I've been terrified that I have to take math 111 again, which I failed so very miserably my first time trying full-time school. But the 200-level chemistry and biology classes are recommended for pre-meds, not for nurses!

I've already taken writing 121 and 122...I need to find out what my grades were. If they weren't an A or B, fuck it, I'm taking them over again. I remember that 121 was an A. Thankfully, OHSU only bothers to look at classes that you're using to transfer. So they don't care that I bombed such'n'such history class if I'm not using it to apply! Which is a definite blessing--it's hard as fuck to get into OHSU for nursing already. They point out that while they don't accept anybody with less than a cumulative 3.0 on their prereqs, it's pretty competitive--the average GPA for anatomy and physiology was 3.8.

Yeah...they only accept one out of every seven applicants or so. Jesus. A lot of it is based on a one-page "statement of purpose." No pressure there, ha ha. I should definitely get a job with direct patient contact, saying "oh, and I've worked __ years with patients who are low/no income, homeless, and/or mentally ill and/or drug addicted..." would probably be a nice addition to that statement, eh?

I only want to go part-time for as long as I can. So this'll take me a couple of years. I can totally do this, especially if I dive into the 100-level bio and chem classes this fall and finish them--then the next year I could take anatomy & physiology plus the other classes required and possibly two psychology classes. I think that I should probably apply to be formally admitted, or I get zero financial aid.

Jesus H. Christ. If I'm so set on going back to school this fall, why the fuck haven't I filled out all that FAFSA shit? I need to do that. And bug my parents to see if they'll help me at all. Probably not, but it's sure worth a shot.

I'm totally doing this. I think I'm going to freak out now.